god that whole scene was excruciating. percy trying so hard to do right and own up to his mistakes. percy apologising to vax, precisely because they’d been getting so close. and then the realisation that vax hadn’t even registered what had happened, that he didn’t even know, and his growing anger as he realises what percy did. and then just, every word where you can hear him fighting between fury and grief whilst percy just panics and gets eaten up by guilt and shame and just UGH. 

and then Vax punches him, and Percy doesn’t even more, and Matt hammers it in with ‘it doesn’t hurt that much, considering how fierce the punch was. what hurts more is knowing that there are further consequences to your actions, even more than you’d expected’

and now percy is buried in his work again and god knows when he’ll surface or how he’ll be when he does. this whole thing just hurts