fun fact: literally every time i encounter a new health/counselling/therapy service and i get a call or assessment appointment, i get asked whether i’ve considered taking my parents to court. i got asked that on friday. it’s…it’s just really weird

i’ve had clinical depression for 9 years. when new places ask about it i have to go into history, and because my depression and anxiety can be connected to my upbringing, that ends up coming up. then i get all the questions about the abuse: are you safe, are your parents near children, what happened exactly etc etc

like this phone call? hard 30 min limit. just supposed to diagnose mental health. but halfway through we’re talking about the abuse stuff and she’s like ‘listen, i have to ask, have you considered taking your parents to court’

and here’s the thing. i love my friends, dearly. none of my close friends live in the same city as me. i can’t very well go messaging them out of the blue with this crap. it’s stressful enough for me and i’m used to it. and i can’t tell people i know in this city because i just don’t know them well enough.

so i just walk around feeling like…like i have this big secret i can’t tell people. a serious, important secret. and it’s so weird and i hate it and yeah. i don’t know it just knocks me off balance